写在前面的话：以前别人总是和我说，上帝会和他们说话。我从来没有听到上帝的声音，不知道他说话的声音是怎么样的。我觉得这些人，也就是打一个比方吧。可现在开始查经了，在自己很困难的时候决定开始查经。我就听到了。我听到了上帝的声音，充满了慈爱，充满了怜悯。我在他的话语里落泪，我在他的话语里找寻光明，我在他的话语里寻找到了标杆。我在这里为所有渴求上帝的弟兄姐妹求祷，愿神我们的天父来和我们每一个人，每一个寻求你的人，说话。阿门！

今天读的章节

既然开场是中文，我就继续中文好了。

我觉得一个章节里面实在是太多内容了，太多重点了。（估计这句话我会说好多次，因为每天都在感慨这个）我只能不停地告诉自己，就像读哈姆雷特一样（虽然我没读过），每个人心中都有一个哈姆雷特。那我读懂读几遍圣经，总能把一次没有啃干净的骨头啃得干干净净。

⁵ They are from the world and therefore speak from the viewpoint of the world, and the world listens to them.

In Jesus, we have a different viewpoint. From SoKM, I learnt that the difference is my world view. I see things and understand things different from the others because I put God first. When God gives us a miracle, we can have many ways to explain it in the viewpoint of the world. But, I don’t want to. I don’t want to deny God and lie to myself. I want to praise God for what He did for me and His constant love. Sometimes, I do find myself take away God’s credit. I would say to myself: 你这个小信的人呐，怎么就那么不争气呢!? Thank God, who gives me the chance to correct myself.

¹² No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

¹⁶ And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.

We see God when we see our loving brothers and sisters taking care of each other. We have the power to love because God gives us the love, when we ask, He even fills us with the Spirit. My church family showed me God is real because the love they gave to me is real. They do not care me for a return. I am so thankful to God that He brought me to them. He made the way for me to root in this group. He picked the group for me.

¹¹ Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

Question: We ought to love one another. That is the command? Why does God command us to do so? Just because He loved us first? Can we choose not to be loved by God, so that we don’t have to love the others?

If you know the answer, teach me!

———–华丽的分割线——–

今天晚上练习敬拜的时候，学会了这首歌。回家听了一晚。我在这个时刻很容易让脑子走神。我知道有两个想法在攻击我，让我沮丧和自我否定。我知道这两个想法都是来自于别人的眼光和别人的议论，是撒旦的攻击。但是控制住自己不要去沮丧，真的好难。在这样的情绪中，这首歌的歌词给了我很大的安慰。

哦！讓神的兒子以祂聖靈 和祂愛來圍繞你 讓祂充滿你心 使你靈滿足
讓祂擔負你一切掛慮 賞賜平安的聖靈 降臨在你生命中 使你完全
耶穌 主耶穌 求充滿我們
耶穌 主耶穌 求充滿我們
哦！揚聲歡呼歌唱讚美 讓你心充滿喜樂 舉起雙手 甘願順服祂的名
將你的憂傷破碎心靈 痛苦歲月交給祂 你將靠著祂的名 進入永生
耶穌 主耶穌 求充滿我們
耶穌 主耶穌 求充滿我們